babymama

When I don’t speak, it’s because you have said something that has cut a little too deep, something that makes my heart break, something that takes me back to when I wasn’t any kind of importance … to anyone.

When I start to cry, it’s because you have hurt me in a way that someone else already has, in a way that I never thought you would have.

& when I argue, It’s because i know as soon as you storm off, I know I will be left alone…having every feeling of being wrong & worthless known to man surround me.

So, my boyfriend left for Texas Friday night to get things ready for me & the kids…

I have talked to him probably a total of 6 hours…

& I don’t even know when I am gonna leave here to go there…

I have cried every night & some parts of the day because of how alone I feel without him…

Not even going to lie, this shit sucks.